Resolving - A Page from My Journal

This year. . .

I want an intimate relationship with God, full of praise, prayer, and thanksgiving. I want to live my life so that everything I do is an offering to God. I want to demonstrate this mentality by putting others before myself and doing nothing with my own selfish desires and hopes in mind. I want to make 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18, Colossians 3:23, and Philippians 2:3-4 my life verses.

I want to take care of myself. I want to be as free of germs as possible. I want physical, emotional, and intellectual health. . . I want to eat healthy and rely less on chemicals. I want to exercise. I want to learn to control my emotions and yield them to God. I want to read, learn, and stretch my brain.

I want to be a more loving wife. I want to give myself completely to Jason. I want to touch him more, and be less reserved when it comes to physical intimacy. I want to just say, "Okay," and stop arguing, defending, challenging, and questioning.

I want to provide a more authentic, wholesome childhood for my children. I want to fill their bodies with good food, clean water, and fresh air. I want to fill their minds with living books, a love for God, and an understanding of others' ideas. I want t fill their hearts with love, peace, and joy. I want to fill their spirits with play, laughter, and even tears. I want, most importantly, to fill their souls with a connection with an intimate and personal God.

I want a clean, simple, beautiful home -- a home that speaks to comfort, peace, and simplicity. I want to clear out all but the essentials, and fill my home with only quality items. I want to get and keep the house clean. But, mostly, I want to declutter the emotions, noise, reactions. . .